I say, time does wonders- it creates memories, and memories play tricks on your mind.
Sometimes you think you are losing control, succumbing to the feeling of giving up, quitting, but you start thinking of your loved ones, or something that could push you on, and suddenly, you found the strength to carry on.
So you start to re-organize your memories, like you re-arrange scattered books onto the bookshelf. Bit by bit, it becomes clearer to you, as you begin to recollect the past, and write them down.
3rd July:
The third book out. Saturday was spent at Vivocity where we watched 'Eclipse' and ate Thai Express, followed by Yigloo. After having spent a month training, I think I have more or less get used to such regimented life. Though training can be hard sometimes, just thinking of the happy moments ahead empowers me with the strength to carry on.
I met up with KC and Fillet today, and had a long chat about the future, like what we were going to do, where we're headed next and all. Clearly, the paths are going to be different, and when the time to part comes, it might be some time before we meet again. Though farewell can be a hard thing to say, this is the best option we have.
Sometimes, we can't have the best of both worlds.
Nonetheless, I enjoyed myself today. 'Saya suka hati', I say. It means 'I am happy.' For the time being, I will at least enjoy the moments we have together.
Before we say 'au revoir'.
